hort park.

was bored.
so forced bee to go hort park.
make fool of ourselves.
big smiles.
went home.

baby.

baby.
i appreciate you.
thank you for being here.
for all i know,you complete me.

you dont deserve to feel hurt.
i will do anything to protect you from that.

but if it comes from me,
i apologise.
but you know i love you too much for that right.


thank god for letting you be part of my life.
thank you baby.
i love you.

uhuh.

i promise it wasnt me.
promise.

insanity.

been super crazy.
everything's just buzzing around.
bleurgh.

tracing my footsteps.
to nothing.

come home.yes you bee.

guess where...
yupyup.

night safari!
it was halloween week.
but we went on a week day.
so didnt get to experience the terror ride.
but it was fun all the same.

rest of the pics are at my multiply.

had a good time!
many more visits to come!
*eyebrow moving up and down vigorously*

have been busy.
super busy.

alhamdullilah.
i got a another job.
gonna be starting next year.
but im really gonna miss those kids.
awww.

btw.
went to tekong with bee's family.
jizjuz rombongan.
someone is now mr balukuk.
xoxoxo.

btw.
saw yantoro just now.
i got two words to describe that police lady.
fierce.braceface.
haha.
gotta sit around with her again someday.

ok.
got lots more to say.

but so little time.
argh.

daa.


*mr balukuk.5 more days.been waiting.pls hurry.te amo.*

decisions.

yellow.

is this for me?

well.
mama has been asking me to take up a course which i can start a business with.
that's hard.


so then.
i asked bee.


what is the one business avenue that you can picture me in?
his reply.

apparel design.


but im scared.
i don't have the confidence.
yes i did go through a short fashion course.
but that's it.


if i wanna do it now,
i'll have to start with a diploma again.
i have to take full time course.
that will take up 3 more years.


argh.
decisions.desicions.


do something which you love;but not confident in.
or.
do something which you know you can benefit from.
but doing it for the sake of stability and money.


help.


*bee going off soon.oh noooooooo.pls dun.bee.help!pls?*

ponders.

ok.
ive been super busy and super tired.
everything got to me.

right now.
i got so little time so much to do.
my life revolves around
my family.
bee.
the kids.
work.

as i was rotting at home today,
i realised,i am not the person i used to be.

i changed alot.

i lost contact with most of my childhood friends.(maybe coz im busy)
i have incy wincy time left with my family.
i have incy wincy bincy time left with bee.
i think about the same things almost all the time.

sat down and thought bout stuff this past year.

is this all worth it?
still am pondering...

*te amo bee.*

yumkins.

sugarish.

awww.

somebody's gonna get hurt real bad.
somebody.
*grins*

somebody was suuupper sweet today.
fetched me from work.
was late.
but reasonably late.

asked me to take his wax while driving.

so i was lyk,
"nanti leh la!ape kene pkai skg~"

he was like,
"amek je la!"

then there was this pressie waiting for me inside.
and guess what it was!
something i wanted like forever!
awww.

then he said that he had no coupons left.
asked me to check in his dashbox.
aku bodo2 pi check.

i didnt notice this small pink book.
he wrote around 15 pages of our history together back then.
he did another replica of the leaf he did for me three years back.

then he grinned sheepishly.
ish.
*dushdush*

so ya.
sweetest ever kan.

thank you cookie.
i love you.
happy foreverness.(??)

thank you for being with me.
sticking with me through thick and thin.
big and small.
pain and pleasure.
satisfaction and hunger.
kebuloh and kenyang.
and so much more...

*lets continue strengthening the walls that we built around us.te amo dongdong*

hari raya.

selamat hari raya to all muslims!
didnt send out a mass msg this year.
so.
here's a mass shout out.

maafkan salah silap.
if ade terkasar bahase.
ampunkan.
kalau ade yang hurt from things that i did or said,
directly or indirectly.
im sorry.
makan and minum halalkan.
haja mintak maaf ok.
selamat hari raya.

ok.
that's the shout out.
ok.
i got tons of pictas.

most are from my cuzzies.
they have yet to upload.
so those that are with me are already on my multiply.

korang yang nak grab.
grab dari saner.
malas aku nak send2.

ok.
a lil bout our first day.
we went black this year!
all thanks to me.
la dee dum.

so starting from this year,i have to repeat,
"takpe2.da keje."
no hangbaos!

and that was the first tym in my whole lyf.
more than 1 person said,
"ehk.mate natural ehk?brown?wah."
*kening wiggle2 many times*

actually it was baby blue.
ntah kenape tukar jadi brown.
ahem.

ok la.
that is all.
too tired to type.
gonna be uploading more pictas!

daa.


*if i have one wish.
i'd use it for you.
wish you were here.*

*i miss you like spongebob misses his pants.teamodongdong*

cuteness.

me: adam.have you bought your hari raya baju?

adam: yes.and its blue!

me: ala..why blue?mine is black.i wanna wear the same colour as you~

adam: oh wait! i have black!

me: *happy face*

adam: but i just wear it for kenduri or when a lot of people sit and doa together.

me: ala...then how?~

adam: teacher~ *holding my shoulders for moral support*
okok.i will wear my black baju this year for you ok?
i will just keep my blue one.
ok?~

me: *very happy face* yea!ok! i love you adam.

adam: i love you too.


from a mere five year old.
cuteness or what.

lateNights.

yellow.

char siew pau hates maggi mee.

one day,he saw spaghetti and instantly gave her a tight slap.

he shouted:

"don't think coz you rebonded your hair,i can't recognise you!!!"

-_-"'


ok.

i really cant sleep.
but my eyes are tired.
so iritating.

so here i am.
watching antm.
texting bee.

gotta get people to massage my back.
so achy.

ok.
daa.


*wish you were here dongdong*

steps.

yellow.

outdated photo.
kindersports.yep.

holidays are coming to an end soon.

part of me says yes ar!
coz i miss the kids.

part of me says oh man!
coz its gonna be tiring.

oh well.

anyways.

got a notification for my application under MOE.
Alhamdulillah.
hope i can get in.

that's a start.
right bee?

collected my passport today.
the place was frigging full!
we waited like 2 and a half hrs total before we get our passports.

*if you wanna know why you are the one.well let me count the ways.te amo*

right.

got this from shida's blog.

yea right.

ask me to put anything in my eye.

now you see me.
now you dont.

daa.

*cant wait to see you tomorrow love*

tudung to tadang.

adam.jaro.aqil.
these two cuzzies.
once they hug and kiss you.
tats it.

my tudung become tadang.

no surprise i why i cant get a good shot.
they keep moving.

i told them.

me: teacher gonna miss you guys.

adam: teacher.(holding my face)
i will come back after the holidays ok.
dont worry ok? you just wait here.

aqil: leh(why) you miss me?(he pelat)

the conversation goes on.
but im too tired to type.
advantages of working at a preschool.

no matter how tired you are.
you will always feel better.
cause there will be hugs and kisses everywhere.


ok.
daa.

i used to think that miracles dont exist.
but everything changed when i saw you.
it was first a simple crush.
done and over with.
then,you looked at me.

xoxoxo.
ilovemydongdong.

sunshine.

yellow.

wakiewakiesunshine.

wow.
feels so good to be at home this time of the day.

niwae.
when i woke up.
(not remembering anything,mind you)
i saw quite a long scratch mark on my elbow.
and a few mosquito marks.
but the marks are big.
the type that kinda disfigure the shape of your hand and leg.
that kind.
how the heck did those get there?!

thought of going t the library today.
been so long.

ok.
waiting for mrsunshine to wake up.

ok.
daa.

teacher's day.

so.
went home like some mad woman carrying tons of stuff.
luckily nur was as mad as i was.
she alighted at simei and took a cab back.


pak sanggup oh pak sanggup.
hee.


buke-d wit iman staff from bukit batok and eunosville.
pataya garden.

so imagine.
heavy tummy.
heavy bag.
heavy eyes.
heaviness.

aniwaes.
thank you Allah.

despite all that.
emptiness is still within.
trying to fill it up with things that matters.

i officially declare tomorrow TIDO TIDO DAY!

ok.
daa.

*everytime we take one step forward.you take two steps back*

zombie.

today was another zombie day for me and tengs.
well.
ryte now.
zombie days are the best.
were pictasing the whole nyte.

didnt catch a glimpse of baby since thurs.
hmrph.
missing dongdong.

told bee i was gonna update at noon.
well look at the time now.

well.
my sat went quite zombily.
got home from work around 6 plus.
slept till buke.
after buke,solat.
after solat,slept again.

jizjuz a tub of lard.

mama woke me up around 1130pm.
she asked me to shift to my room.
apparently i fell asleep on the sofa.

ate sum junk.
talked to bee till sahur.
after sahur.
slept till 12pm.

tengs woke up at 5pm mind you.

tommorow will be my first teacher's day.
gonna take lotsa pictas!

btw.

joke of the year.
tengs and baba dropped a fire extinguisher in ntuc.
it went off.
the white substance thingy filled the place.
but they just cabot.
and laughed their heads off.

wacky.

ok.
daa.

*bee.uve been a sweetheart.no matter what.ana behibak.*

lalala.

the 'ratus' on teacher's day.
teachers from my center.
.ustazah ani.jaro.
.mdm aini.jaro.
.jaro.mdm aini.nadia.

guess muke sape tak kene gaye.
hee.
the one in pink lerrr.

the other ratus had rented outfits.
very the blink2 cans!
some were nice.
mine was rented too.
but it was free.
hee.

there were three rounds to the ratu iman tingy.
first round was to cat walk.
second round was the creative round.
third round was for the questionnaire.

with my slumberness.
i managed to scrape tru all.
hee.
of coz.
making a fool out of myself for most parts.
duh.

but all in all.
was a fun experience!

will be celebrating teacher's day on mon.
meaning.
tues's a holiday.

yipee yaiyai yipeeyipee yai.

got to buke wit bee last week.
went geylang.
but we just walked around.
didnt bother to look at the clothes.
not yet maybe.

everytym we buke at geylang.
we will meet some friendly makcik sitting at the same table.
luckily we also quite friendly.
hee.

ok.

game time!
bee watching soccer.
wanna wait.
xoxoxo.

i've got smarties.
yes i do.
i've got smarties.
how bout you~

yumyum.

happy "togetherness" bee.

yellow.

how was the first break fast?
bet it was yummy slurpslurp.
hee.

was still on mc.
so.
rot at home.
walked around lyk a zombie.

notice i update frequently nowadays.
cause im awaes gaming.
play with mama la.
addicted.

niwaes.
you know the feeling of someone watching you.
reading your blog.
but you're not sure.
you don't know.
but the feeling is there.
argh.
blablabla ok?

so ya.
just updating for the sake of updating.

btw.

thank you for remembering bee.
that meant a whole lot to me.

thank you for being here all these while.
for tolerating crap from me.
im a handful.
i know.

thank you for being there when i needed someone.
thank you for being there when i didnt need anyone.
thank you for being there when i wanted to be alone.
thank you for being there when i felt alone.

thank you for being you.

happy "togetherness" baby.

iloveyou.
xoxoxo.

ramadhan.

yellow.

starting of ramadhan and im down with mc.
today and tomorow.
slept at 2am yesterdae.
argh.

so.
woke up and felt very sick.
told everyone tat i dont wanna go work.
slept for a few more mins.

got up.
went to poly.
bee accompanied me.
jizjuz kened bangun pagil.
but thk u and ure my one and only dongdong.

den we supperdek.
wanted to save money.
so eat pun kene budget2.
but den we saw BK.

me: nak eat where?
bee: sembarang ar.yang kedai bwah mrt pun ok per.
(walking past BK)
me: ehk!kter kene save money kan?
bee:*looked at me cluelessly*
me: Bk per?
bee:jom!
(walked happily towards BK)

so that was our breakfast.
den he went solat and i went home.
tot of rotting at home till nyte.
but we missed each other too much.

so before terawih.
we went out.
jizjuzgotaquickie.


ok.
so tommorow is the start of the fasting month.
the month of prayers.
the month of good deeds.
it's gonna be hard.
but we should try.okie?

so open up those hearts okie?
happie fasting!

*meh tumse pyaar kartehu*jizjuz tk tau spell.

random.

yellow.

just had a call from the shida!!!rawr!
hee.
just kene with her.

hmm.
tot of joining under moe.
hmm.
hmm.
and more hmmm.

uncle mention about becoming an ite lecturer.
hmmm.
shida said to join teaching at pri level.
hmmm.
what should i do?
hmmm.

for now.
im loving the kids.
and family.
and baby.

went cadar hunting wit bee just now.
for mama bee's bdae.
but we didnt find anything he liked so ya.
but i love hunting.

niwaes.
he has been so sweet.
fetching me everydae after work.
trying his very best.
i appreciate k sugar?
ze best.

u is did dongdong?
hee.

*dushdush*

weekend.

been a hectic week.
had mama's bdae on tues.
went to eighteen chef's for dinner.
makan sampai giler.
hee.
u know me n my family.
happie birthdae to beloved mama.
may Allah bless you!

ok.
weekends.
lets start from fri.

went to bee's place.
was farah's bdae.
his family was very welcoming.
ok.
wasnt the first tym being wit his family.
but still segan la.
but it went fine.
hee.

ok.
sat updates.

had staff fiesta.
had to model for the ratu iman.
everyone else was very pretty.
i had to stand in for nur at the last min.
so it was kinda bo pian la.
but it was fun.
hee.

ok.
sun updates.
was very happy.
can chillax the whole dae.
went to lunch wit fam loves.
headed over to parkwae.

den.
my family and bee family meet!
for the first tym!
yea!
hee.
jizjuz tak kene gaye.

but it went well.
my mama toked wit mama bee.
mama was so funny.
hee.

ok.
tat was my weekend.
be having another audit this week.

been offered dpt.
bond for two yrs.
to go or not to go.

its all about work these daes.
so long since i just let go.
been so tight ever since.
the only time i get to let go is wit bee.
shian dier.

btw.
i miss dongdong.

sorry bee if im always bz.
i always think of you though.

so.
is this sweet or romantic bee?
hee.
u ar.

*dush*

BunchOfNerves.

had my first audit yesterday.

veryveryveryveryvery nerve wrecking.

told the kids to behave.
but to no avail.
*roll eyes*
but i still love them all.

foal.
i pronounced as fowl.
as slenge as ever.
gurl_confused.

but the comments were ok for a first timer i think.

k.

im back after 45mins.

had an urgent case to attend to.

ok.

went to eighteen chefs for dinner just now.
was supppeeer full.
bee and me cant even breathe.

he walked me home.
with both of us holding up our tummies.

intended to drive him home.
well.
cheh.

but he dun want me to drive home alone after sending hym.
so he ended up taking cab.

sowie bee.

ok.

gotta finish up some work now.

daa~


*fill me up baby*

emptiness,

ok.

words unwritten.
wall that was built.
came tumbling down.
wanted everything.
got everything.

emptiness felt.
questions asked.
love.life.live it.
blanks.


unsure.

very unsure.

think i need a break.been focused way too long.
fukitol pills?
nah.
not yet.

*baby.come and save me*

dailies.

yellow.

been so long since i update.
very busy.
lotsa things to take care of.
been working.

all my friends are busy too.
so its ok.

baby seems very sad.
he is all alone without his friends.

ok.
updates.

been catching lotsa movies lately.
watched transformers twice.
hee.

alot of kids celebrated their birthdaes these few daes.
i bring home cakes and goodies alot.

a.luqman is the cutest!
*melts melts*

went to marina on fridae.
baby wanted to get some stuff.
first thing we did when we arrived was to eat.
jizjuz kebulohs.

shopped.
joked.
laughed.
beat up each other.
home.

will be having my tp next week.
baby said i will fail again.
whuuuuuuuuttt?!
3 times?!?!?!!?
so slenge cans.

money has been tight.
thank you baby for everything.
*grins*
xoxoxoxoxo.

ok.
done.
seems like i've got lots to sae.
but its all gone by the time i reach this page.

daa.

*bee.*muzzling on the arm yang sejuk*hrmph.makanan*

bundles of joy.

ok.

just a dash here.

i recently found my new bundles of joy.
eventhough its hard work for a newcomer,
everything is going so-so now for me.
still surviving as some might say.

been a hectic week for me.
been inputing lotsa new facts and procedures.
been executing lotsa new facts and procedures.
hmm.

but people around me have been of great help.
lalala.
k.
gotta get going.

cant be star karat tomorow.
confirm one day aku kene sound.


ok.
daa.


*thank you for being there everydae baby.i need you.*

babylove.

baby.
i know this isnt appropriate here.
but i made a boo boo and i care.

no matter what it is.
i apologise from the bottom of my heart.
you have been nothing but the best to me.
always with open arms.

you are the one that makes me feel like im nobody.
you are the one that makes me down.
you are the one that makes me feel like im the worst being alive.

but baby.
you are the one that make me feel like im the only one.
you are the one that pulls me up all the time.
you are the one that makes me feel worth living.

you are the light that fills my life.
and you will always be.

i love you baby.


*i love you like you love to gigit your kuku.hee.*

so little time.

so little time so much to do.

ok.
been ages since the last post.
things have been going well.
congratulations to kak D on her wedding!!!
gonna have the pics up on multiply in a bit.

but first i have hundreds of iman photos to upload.
but i wont upload all.
coz its toooo many.
all in multiply.
do check it out.

alhamdullillah.
work has so far been fine.
hope it will continue.
and the kids are arggggggggggggghhhh.
cutieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssss!

*teamobeebee*

jobscope.cheh.

ok.
finding a job is crap.

alhamdulillah.
got one.
starting soon.
no experience.
so the pay is kinda on the down side.

but i'll get by.
till i get a better job,
im stuck.


but very sayang to leave my current job.
decisions.decisions.


ceremony is tomorrow.
excited?
narnop excited.
i got nothing to wear.
no top.no shoes.no nothing.
jizjuz pokai.
purr.purr.


i find my blog very mendak.
i cant write the black details even if i have any.
got a wall to hold up.
this is the world we're living in.


lalalalalalalala.
ko beloool lagi.


*3moredays.didntknowwecouldcomethisfar.wegottoomuchtoholdonto.ilovemydongdong*

al-fatihah.

sedekah kan al-fatihah untuk atok.
semoga tempatnya di golongan orang yang soleh.
amin.

hectic.

had a very hectic week.

overdue pics.

chalet.
safra tanah merah country club resort.
beautiful.

was a fast and breezy one.
so pardon those hu were not invited.

to clear the air.

the plan was for us three couples.
to have a weekend away.
just chill out together.

but it happened to be baby's birthdae.
so we called over sum of his frens.
whom we didnt know hu was invited.
coz we left those to the guys.

so.
im sorry if anyone got hurt along this process.

but baby said it was the best birthday.
it was all worth it.
this were sum pics.

didnt post on multiply.
coz of sum reasons.
on top were those pics.