insanity.

been super crazy.
everything's just buzzing around.
bleurgh.

tracing my footsteps.
to nothing.

come home.yes you bee.

guess where...
yupyup.

night safari!
it was halloween week.
but we went on a week day.
so didnt get to experience the terror ride.
but it was fun all the same.

rest of the pics are at my multiply.

had a good time!
many more visits to come!
*eyebrow moving up and down vigorously*

have been busy.
super busy.

alhamdullilah.
i got a another job.
gonna be starting next year.
but im really gonna miss those kids.
awww.

btw.
went to tekong with bee's family.
jizjuz rombongan.
someone is now mr balukuk.
xoxoxo.

btw.
saw yantoro just now.
i got two words to describe that police lady.
fierce.braceface.
haha.
gotta sit around with her again someday.

ok.
got lots more to say.

but so little time.
argh.

daa.


*mr balukuk.5 more days.been waiting.pls hurry.te amo.*

decisions.

yellow.

is this for me?

well.
mama has been asking me to take up a course which i can start a business with.
that's hard.


so then.
i asked bee.


what is the one business avenue that you can picture me in?
his reply.

apparel design.


but im scared.
i don't have the confidence.
yes i did go through a short fashion course.
but that's it.


if i wanna do it now,
i'll have to start with a diploma again.
i have to take full time course.
that will take up 3 more years.


argh.
decisions.desicions.


do something which you love;but not confident in.
or.
do something which you know you can benefit from.
but doing it for the sake of stability and money.


help.


*bee going off soon.oh noooooooo.pls dun.bee.help!pls?*

ponders.

ok.
ive been super busy and super tired.
everything got to me.

right now.
i got so little time so much to do.
my life revolves around
my family.
bee.
the kids.
work.

as i was rotting at home today,
i realised,i am not the person i used to be.

i changed alot.

i lost contact with most of my childhood friends.(maybe coz im busy)
i have incy wincy time left with my family.
i have incy wincy bincy time left with bee.
i think about the same things almost all the time.

sat down and thought bout stuff this past year.

is this all worth it?
still am pondering...

*te amo bee.*

yumkins.

sugarish.

awww.

somebody's gonna get hurt real bad.
somebody.
*grins*

somebody was suuupper sweet today.
fetched me from work.
was late.
but reasonably late.

asked me to take his wax while driving.

so i was lyk,
"nanti leh la!ape kene pkai skg~"

he was like,
"amek je la!"

then there was this pressie waiting for me inside.
and guess what it was!
something i wanted like forever!
awww.

then he said that he had no coupons left.
asked me to check in his dashbox.
aku bodo2 pi check.

i didnt notice this small pink book.
he wrote around 15 pages of our history together back then.
he did another replica of the leaf he did for me three years back.

then he grinned sheepishly.
ish.
*dushdush*

so ya.
sweetest ever kan.

thank you cookie.
i love you.
happy foreverness.(??)

thank you for being with me.
sticking with me through thick and thin.
big and small.
pain and pleasure.
satisfaction and hunger.
kebuloh and kenyang.
and so much more...

*lets continue strengthening the walls that we built around us.te amo dongdong*