decisions.

yellow.

is this for me?

well.
mama has been asking me to take up a course which i can start a business with.
that's hard.


so then.
i asked bee.


what is the one business avenue that you can picture me in?
his reply.

apparel design.


but im scared.
i don't have the confidence.
yes i did go through a short fashion course.
but that's it.


if i wanna do it now,
i'll have to start with a diploma again.
i have to take full time course.
that will take up 3 more years.


argh.
decisions.desicions.


do something which you love;but not confident in.
or.
do something which you know you can benefit from.
but doing it for the sake of stability and money.


help.


*bee going off soon.oh noooooooo.pls dun.bee.help!pls?*

ponders.

ok.
ive been super busy and super tired.
everything got to me.

right now.
i got so little time so much to do.
my life revolves around
my family.
bee.
the kids.
work.

as i was rotting at home today,
i realised,i am not the person i used to be.

i changed alot.

i lost contact with most of my childhood friends.(maybe coz im busy)
i have incy wincy time left with my family.
i have incy wincy bincy time left with bee.
i think about the same things almost all the time.

sat down and thought bout stuff this past year.

is this all worth it?
still am pondering...

*te amo bee.*

yumkins.

sugarish.

awww.

somebody's gonna get hurt real bad.
somebody.
*grins*

somebody was suuupper sweet today.
fetched me from work.
was late.
but reasonably late.

asked me to take his wax while driving.

so i was lyk,
"nanti leh la!ape kene pkai skg~"

he was like,
"amek je la!"

then there was this pressie waiting for me inside.
and guess what it was!
something i wanted like forever!
awww.

then he said that he had no coupons left.
asked me to check in his dashbox.
aku bodo2 pi check.

i didnt notice this small pink book.
he wrote around 15 pages of our history together back then.
he did another replica of the leaf he did for me three years back.

then he grinned sheepishly.
ish.
*dushdush*

so ya.
sweetest ever kan.

thank you cookie.
i love you.
happy foreverness.(??)

thank you for being with me.
sticking with me through thick and thin.
big and small.
pain and pleasure.
satisfaction and hunger.
kebuloh and kenyang.
and so much more...

*lets continue strengthening the walls that we built around us.te amo dongdong*

hari raya.

selamat hari raya to all muslims!
didnt send out a mass msg this year.
so.
here's a mass shout out.

maafkan salah silap.
if ade terkasar bahase.
ampunkan.
kalau ade yang hurt from things that i did or said,
directly or indirectly.
im sorry.
makan and minum halalkan.
haja mintak maaf ok.
selamat hari raya.

ok.
that's the shout out.
ok.
i got tons of pictas.

most are from my cuzzies.
they have yet to upload.
so those that are with me are already on my multiply.

korang yang nak grab.
grab dari saner.
malas aku nak send2.

ok.
a lil bout our first day.
we went black this year!
all thanks to me.
la dee dum.

so starting from this year,i have to repeat,
"takpe2.da keje."
no hangbaos!

and that was the first tym in my whole lyf.
more than 1 person said,
"ehk.mate natural ehk?brown?wah."
*kening wiggle2 many times*

actually it was baby blue.
ntah kenape tukar jadi brown.
ahem.

ok la.
that is all.
too tired to type.
gonna be uploading more pictas!

daa.


*if i have one wish.
i'd use it for you.
wish you were here.*

*i miss you like spongebob misses his pants.teamodongdong*

cuteness.

me: adam.have you bought your hari raya baju?

adam: yes.and its blue!

me: ala..why blue?mine is black.i wanna wear the same colour as you~

adam: oh wait! i have black!

me: *happy face*

adam: but i just wear it for kenduri or when a lot of people sit and doa together.

me: ala...then how?~

adam: teacher~ *holding my shoulders for moral support*
okok.i will wear my black baju this year for you ok?
i will just keep my blue one.
ok?~

me: *very happy face* yea!ok! i love you adam.

adam: i love you too.


from a mere five year old.
cuteness or what.